so be ready.
coz itz gonna be f*ckin' jiwang.
*hahakzZZZ!!!!!
pukimak korang smua!!!!!!
kenapa la semuanye macam SIAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 // 11:19 PM
shafa...
he suddenly misses her alot...
Sunday, April 20, 2008 // 8:42 PM
a sad story...
He looked at his watch, it was 4.30 in the morning. He was somewhere he always thought that can be alone and relax. Away from all the chaos of the world. as he walked towards the water breaker, he slipped his vodka, a bottle of Glenn’s mixed with a touch of Sprite, he was enjoying every one of it. He needed it every night after a hard day at work. It smoothes his headaches and stress brought by his work and life. Listening to his ipod, he ignored everything that passed him, everything that was happening around him. The truth was, he didn’t cared.
He sat down facing the sea as he watched the waves just below. He was enjoying the breeze and was enjoying the view too.
Everyone thought he was working. They didn’t know where he really was. No one ever called now. Not even his mom. Its been 3 days since he talk to her. They didn’t have any problems, just that now he wasn’t home often. He was out somewhere every night.
He lighted a cigarette. Without him knowing, everything started crawling back into his mind. Why did all this happen to him? How can everything be so cruel? It was unfair.
He started to think of her. The past year was the best thing ever to have happened to him. After she left him, he became what he is now, dead, aimless and depressed. All that he worked for all this while, money that he earned and saved for, all the sacrifices now didn’t matter anymore.
He just felt like drowning himself, but he didn’t have the courage to do it. He was just a coward.
Tears started to fill his eyes and rolled down his cheeks. He didn’t really know the reason why he was crying. Maybe he was so sad thinking about whatever that have happened in his life. He kept asking himself. WHY?
He’s confused and depressed. He wished so much that she would be there beside him looking at how he was, his condition, to really know what really happened in his life. No words could express how much he wanted to see her, to touch her adorable face, to hug her and never ever let go.
He missed her.
He wanted so badly to live his life with her...
But...
80 days without her...
7th April 2007
0634hrs
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 // 10:54 PM
manje...
i dont know why i keep thinking of her...
why i talk abt u...
why i dream abt u...
i dont noe..
after all u did to me..
its unfair,cruel and selfish...
u played with my heart my feelings...
for all that reasons im suppossed to hate u...
BUT
i do still love u..
i do still wanna wait for u..
but the hardest is...
missing that one girl...
that,
Nur Safawati...
haiz~
Saturday, April 05, 2008 // 1:26 AM
3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd 3rd
memories...
just bcoz of a reminder fm my phone today...
makes me so down and sad today...
reminds me of the time first met..
and the last time we hugged..
haiz...
i hate '3rds'
i hate life...
i hate everything...
theres no meaning in life anymore...
how could it be so cruel..
i still cant believe it...
It's like whatever I say, or travel through....
Verse 1:
Now, now, she loved me, shawty I loved her.
Used to jump up in the Maybach and roll out.
Used to care, used to share,
the love that she used to give me can't be found.
I lost my way, she said she'd stay, and lately i've been sleeping with a ghost.
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold.
Bridge:
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us.
And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us.
I told you to leave but you lied to me when you said that,
Baby no worries i promise to get us back.
I know sorry's just wouldn't do it.
Her heart is obliterated I'm trying to travel through,
But it's like moving mountains, it's like moving mountains.
But I keep climbing in hoping things would change, and the sky turns grey,
And the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains, it's like moving mountains.
Why you just leave me, just leave me be,
Just leave me, just leave me be.
Why you just leave me, just leave me be,
why you just leave me, just leave me be.
She, she don't touch me, I don't touch her,
We really even ever say a word.
I really wanna give her everything she deserves,
but the bad took away the good.
she thinks that I'm full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired
every kiss that I miss, girl you know I'm trying.
you never believe what I say, and I never believe it when you say, "I love you."
and I shouldn't complain about it, I should take it like a man and walk up out of it,
cause we will never be the same, I been standing in gas, and you have been the flames.
I know sorries just wouldn't do it,
her heart is obliterated I'm trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain, it's like moving mountains.
But I keep climbing in hoping things will change, and the sky turns grey,
And the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains, it's like moving mountains.
Why you just leave me, just leave me be,
Just leave me, just leave me be.
Why you just leave me, just leave me be,
why you just leave me, just leave me be.
So low that I'm just traveling on, and it feel's so wrong, barely holding on.
These hills that I'm traveling up, she aint showing me love, so I move my love on.
I know sorry's just wouldn't do it.
Her heart is obliterated I'm trying to travel through
But it's like mountains, it's like moving mountains.
But I keep climbing in hoping things will change, and the sky turns grey,
And the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains, it's like moving mountains.
Why you just leave me, just leave me be,
just leave me, just leave me be.
Why you just leave me, just leave me be,
why you just leave me, just leave me be.
**sad,lonely and lost...
Thursday, April 03, 2008 // 11:15 PM
never give up!
Gerhana meliputi segala
Tiada lagi sinaran cahaya
Keinginan tanpa kepastian
Tak mampu rasanya ku teruskan
Ku meneruskan...
Biarlah ku relakan segala
Walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya
Mengapa...
Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan
Tak akan pernahku akui kalah
Masih terdampar ku disini
Tiada jalan mungkinku lalui
Harusnya hidupku dipersenda
Mengharungi dugaan melandaKu berserah...
Biarlah ku relakan segala
Walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya
Mengapa...
Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan
Tak akan pernahku akui kalah
Tuhanku ku relakan segala
Takkan pernahku akui kalah
Percayaku yakin padanya
Dia yang menentukan semua
Ku berserah
i was scanning my pictures in my ipod when this song played in my ipod and i was looking at our bangkok pictures...
damn,i miss u so much...
**i still know that u still love me but sumthing is just holding u back...
Tuesday, April 01, 2008 // 8:49 AM